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Inside the Book

15 Chapters. 1,870 Days.
One Irreplaceable Bond.

A story told in four parts, from the first meeting at an airport to the permanent transformation that follows loss. Over 80,000 words across 15 chapters.

15

Chapters

1,870

Days Together

80K+

Words

Part One

The Love

Prologue + Chapters 1–5

How a closed-off founder met an English Bulldog at LaGuardia during lockdown and learned what being present actually costs. Morning massages, the fame, three pneumonia scares in that first year, and the day Franki finally accepted his son.

What you’ll find inside

First meeting at LaGuardia
The morning massage ritual
Building a life around a bulldog
Instagram fame and 1.5M followers
Three pneumonia scares in his first year
Freddi's arrival, father and son

Part Two

The Loss & The Grief

Chapters 6–9

The seventy-fourth day away, and the call. What the first thirty days look like when grief is compounded by guilt, distance, and the suspicion that it was preventable. Why "it's just a dog" is scientifically wrong: the oxytocin studies on prolonged eye contact, and two nervous systems that had spent five years tuning each other.

What you’ll find inside

The seventy-fourth day
The first 30 days of grief
Guilt, distance, and preventability
Why "it's just a dog" is wrong
The science of attachment
What your body already knew

Part Three

The Healing

Chapters 10–13

What remains after loss. Surviving the "firsts": birthdays, holidays, seeing another bulldog. Freddi's own grief journey and learning to love him differently. The architecture of moving forward while carrying what you've lost.

What you’ll find inside

Surviving the "firsts"
Freddi's grief journey
Learning to love differently
The rock-in-your-pocket metaphor
Moving forward without moving on
Finding meaning in the aftermath

Part Four

The Survival

Chapters 14–15 + Epilogue

Eight months on, calling Freddi by the wrong name on the way to the park. A framed photograph on the wall and a first collar on the shelf below it. What a life looks like once it has been rebuilt around an absence, and a December morning with the dog who stayed.

What you’ll find inside

The architecture of after
Calling Freddi by the wrong name
The photograph and the first collar
A December morning
The unsurvivable, survived

Which part is for you?

You’re currently grieving

Start with Part Two. Chapter 9 (the neuroscience) may be the permission you need to finally fall apart.

You want to understand the bond

Start with Part One. The love story works even if you’ve never lost a dog.

You’re preparing for goodbye

Read Parts One and Three. Know what’s coming, and know that you will survive it.

You followed Franki’s journey

Read it all. The private moments, the morning massages and the meal countdowns, are the heart of this book.

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